I'm not sure if there was anything I did recently. You haven't been willing to call me as "Kai Ma" for a while. I didn't take seriously. Last Sunday when you came to my place, I asked to you call my cleaning lady "Hi Auntie". You insisted of just calling "Hi". I asked a few times, and you still wouldn't change. I told you calling people my name or by their ranking (auntie, uncle) is something is important coming to my place. You chose to stand by the door for not calling instead of to come in and sit down.
I tried to explain to you. You seemed you understood. You said you would want people to call you by your name, not just "Hi"; and you do the same to people. The truth was you were not doing it. I couldn't understand why. I know if it was your mommy who asked you to call people by name or ranking, you'd do it without delay. I also tried to find out why you haven't been willing to call me "Kai Ma". Of course, I didn't have an answer from you.
When I called you on Monday night (just the next day), you even called "Hi Pandora". I asked if that was how you want to call me from now on. You first said yes then you said no. I wasn't mad at all, but was wondering "hm.....what happened between us?"
I'm not sure if there was anything I did that upset you. You don't seem to want this Kai Ma around. If this is the case, I am pretty okay with it. We didn't give you a choice to have this Kai Ma. We only told you I am your Kai Ma. Whether I'm your Kai Ma or not, I still love you as who you are. However, I'd like to find out what caused your attitude changed toward me. Was it something you felt I changed. Like your mommy said "action and reaction". I hope to do better next time if I am going to be a Kai Ma again. No matter what, as long as you live happily and healthily, it really doesn't matter if I'm your Kai Ma or not. :))
Love you lots!
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